Last night I decided to face it.
I swallowed slowly as it lay before me on the table. The journal from the road trip has been accessible, but I haven't opened it since my return over four months ago. I remembered the sadness as I returned ~ feeling like I had failed coming home earlier than expected and with empty pockets.
Since I have begun to write my book, most of the contents has come from memories or a notation in my calendar. It felt real. It felt complete. However last weekend was my "girls weekend" with my closest friends ~ the first time the three of us have been together without kids and events since my return. We dove head first into our hearts as we ate fresh fruit and drank aged wines.
Our gathering sparked the need to recall the stuff of the journey. It was time to face the reality, the truth of the emotions that were were logged into my travel journal.
As the pages poured out their musings, I smiled. The journey was not a failure at all, but the awakening of my soul.
Ahhhhh. :)
Sunshine is a great builder of soul power! Like solar power, it generates goodness exponentially! Eugene has little to no sunshine this time of year, so as a "Eugeny" I am learning to savor the glimpses of that warm, bright thing in the sky. I take that time to recharge my battery with the juice of new energy.
I am visiting Gary's Coffee in Eugene near the 5th Street Artisan District. I love, love, love my barista! His cool, orange energy is very "sun-like" and I am soaking it in. Can you tell I listened to Sheryl Crow earlier? His name is John and he has been barista-ing for 9 years with his beginnings in Michigan, of all places. Since I am in the NW, they have convinced me that this IS the place for US coffee history and I have messages into a couple of people to find out more about that. I will ask them about the Michigan connection ... tee hee.
He just walked away to assist a guest .... more soon :) I'll get a picture, too.
